The Last and Final Desire...

Why are we never truly satisfied? It's because we have nothing real; we have only illusions. Have you noticed that even when you get what you want, you immediately want something else? Give you a million dollars and the first thing you will do is go buy something -- the money was not satisfying in itself. Once you have the objects of your money, you will want more and bigger objects -- and that takes even more money. It never ends; no matter what you get, you will want something else. And none of it is satisfying because it's not really what you want.

If you had just one thing that is real it would be truly satisfying, then you could finally relax, and stop wanting. But you have nothing of the kind and you probably wouldn't recognize if you did. Because, that which is real is always real; that which isn't real, never was. Only reality is real -- but it isn't what you think (literally). Reality is the one truly satisfying experience, and the objects of your desire are never real in themselves -- they are always symbols of something deeper. Do not seek for symbols, it's like eating the menu. Symbols are pointers, indicating a direction for your awareness to follow.

In fact it is your thinking that keeps you from having anything real (or being real). You will see reality only when you stop looking for something else. Drop the false, and the true is as it always was. What is false? How can you tell the difference between true and false...? Just look.

...and look deeply. As long as you are aware of surfaces only, you cannot see the truth because the truth is inside, in a hidden dimension, a dimension that transcends space and time. The truth is contained in a higher dimension from the one you think you inhabit. You think you are a 3-d being living in the fourth dimension experienced as time. That's not the whole truth. Appearances are deceiving. Learn to see beyond appearances; it's easy once you face the fear.

Looking deeply you will see many seeming contradictions, and guilt, which will cause fear. Just remember that the contradictions are only seeming, not real. But you cannot know this until you have looked past them to what they seem to hide. And there may be many layers of contradictions you may have to transcend before you finally arive Home, where there is only truth. The journey is well worth the effort.

How to look deeply...? Just be honest with yourself, become clear on what you really want, and don't settle for anything less. When any desire comes to you, look into it deeply and ask yourself if this is really what you want... or is it something deeper. It will most likely be something deeper. So ask again, is this deeper desire what you really want? Probably not, so ask again, and again, until you have found your last and final desire.

In the end, after your last question you will find the answer to all questions. The answer is what you have always wanted, it is what you have always strived for, it is what you always wanted to give away, it is the reason for being, it is what you are. It is where you are going, and where you came from. It is the ultimate answer to every real question. The answer is Love. But don't take my word for it -- you must find it for yourself, or you will not fully trust it. And when you trust the answer, it will change you profoundly.

So what? How does that possibly help you be happy? So you want love more than anything else, it is the root of all your desire... so what? Knowing this will save you a lot of wasted enrgy, and knowing this will help you find the one truly satisfying experience you can have. And, the very good news is that you already have that which you have been seeking all your life. You were seeking it where it cannot be, thinking it was outside you, thinking it was something to be acquired -- yet in reality, it is inside you always, and is something to be given away.

This Love heals all old wounds, because you will see that every "bad" thing you remember doing happened only by mistake. You have always wanted only to give and receive love and nothing else. But along the way of growing up and being indoctrinated into society, you learned some very inneffective strategies for love. You learned, for example, that you will be loved if you have money. Not so. You learned that if you are physically beautiful, that you will be loved. Not so. Maybe people will love your money, or your looks, but that has nothing to do with who you really. All your strategies for love have failed, because you have been looking in all the wrong places. Just by looking for love you lost it because Love is what you are -- how can you look for it when you are it? Looking pre-supposes that you don't "have" it. Well, tag, you're it -- you are the Love you seek. Now go and tag someone else; it's the most fun you can have.

Because you are Love itself, you have always made the best choices that you could make at the time, just like everyone else. That is how you can forgive others, and yourself, and realize that you have never needed forgiveness in truth, because you have never acted from any other motive than love. You are, and you must be, innocent. You were created; you did not create yourself. So, how can you be held responsible for your "mistakes?" They were inevitable; they were planned all along. The truth of this is obvious when you have the courage to stop fighting yourself and condemning yourself.

Herein lies your freedom, if you want it. You were created by Love itself, you are nothing but Love itself, and you create from Love itself. All else is fear, and fear is always a mistake -- there is nothing to fear in a perfect universe. You are that perfect Universe, the Universe of Love. But you will not see it as long as you hold your self guilty, for anything -- for your guilt is a wish for punishment, and so wished, it is received. But not really; only in your imagine are you punished, for love cannot punish, and love is all there is. So where does your suffering come from...? You just made it up, because you wanted it, thinking you deserved it... You are the god of your universe, and if you decide you deserve punishment, so it is, and punishment you will receive (of yourself). Wake up and realize that your freedom or your punishment is up to you, and no one else. Why choose to punish yourself for the inevitable mistakes you have made (because you were taught by people who also believed in punishment).

You deserve love not punishment -- but the world taught you otherwise through it's hurts. Don't believe it. Look for your self. Then, seeing your own perfection, forgive yourself. Every mistake you have made was the result of you doing the best you could do at the time.

Mistakes are how we learn -- they are not anything to worry over. Mistakes are why we came here, to make them and learn from them. So, perhaps you have made some big mistakes; so what You are learning big lessons. Well, learn what makes you happy and what does not. Do the one not the other. Simple isn't it? But be honest with yourself (and you'll see that women and men, fame and fortune, and stuff cannot ever make you happy). So stop kidding yourself.

To be happy you must give and receive love -- it's like breathing. But you will not let yourself or anyone else love you as long as you feel guilty. Drop your guilt by seeing that all your "sins" are nothing more than mistakes -- learn from them and move on. When you see the Love in you, you cannot remain in guilt any longer. That Love in you is you, it is the essence of everything that exists. That Love in you forgives because it knows you are innocent, and can be nothing else because Love itself created you. Be this Love, and then you will know this Love. Accept his Love and you accept yourself. Realize the truth of the existance of this Love, and you can never be alone again, because you are Home, where you never left, back in your heart, the center of the Universe.

Forgive yourself, completely, right now. Don't waste any more time trying to be somebody. You already are as perfect as you can be, here and now, and that is enough. Teach this forgivenes to others, that you will have it for yourself -- it is in the giving that you get it. You cannot forgive yourself and still condemn others, because the truth of forgiveness is true for everyone.

Forgiveness will set you free. Try it. You'll like it. Really.