Why are we never truly satisfied? It's because we have nothing real; we have only illusions. Have you noticed that even when you get what you want, you immediately want something else? Give you a million dollars and the first thing you will do is go buy something -- the money was not satisfying in itself. Once you have the objects of your money, you will want more and bigger objects -- and that takes even more money. It never ends; no matter what you get, you will want something else. And none of it is satisfying because it's not really what you want.
If you had just one thing that is real it would be truly satisfying, then you could finally relax, and stop wanting. But you have nothing of the kind and you probably wouldn't recognize if you did. Because, that which is real is always real; that which isn't real, never was. Only reality is real -- but it isn't what you think (literally). Reality is the one truly satisfying experience, and the objects of your desire are never real in themselves -- they are always symbols of something deeper. Do not seek for symbols, it's like eating the menu. Symbols are pointers, indicating a direction for your awareness to follow.
In fact it is your thinking that keeps you from having anything real (or being real). You will see reality only when you stop looking for something else. Drop the false, and the true is as it always was. What is false? How can you tell the difference between true and false...? Just look.
...and look deeply. As long as you are aware of surfaces only, you cannot see the truth because the truth is inside, in a hidden dimension, a dimension that transcends space and time. The truth is contained in a higher dimension from the one you think you inhabit. You think you are a 3-d being living in the fourth dimension experienced as time. That's not the whole truth. Appearances are deceiving. Learn to see beyond appearances; it's easy once you face the fear.
Looking deeply you will see many seeming contradictions, and guilt, which will cause fear. Just remember that the contradictions are only seeming, not real. But you cannot know this until you have looked past them to what they seem to hide. And there may be many layers of contradictions you may have to transcend before you finally arive Home, where there is only truth. The journey is well worth the effort.
How to look deeply...? Just be honest with yourself, become clear on what you really want, and don't settle for anything less. When any desire comes to you, look into it deeply and ask yourself if this is really what you want... or is it something deeper. It will most likely be something deeper. So ask again, is this deeper desire what you really want? Probably not, so ask again, and again, until you have found your last and final desire.
In the end, after your last question you will find the answer to all questions. The answer is what you have always wanted, it is what you have always strived for, it is what you always wanted to give away, it is the reason for being, it is what you are. It is where you are going, and where you came from. It is the ultimate answer to every real question. The answer is Love. But don't take my word for it -- you must find it for yourself, or you will not fully trust it. And when you trust the answer, it will change you profoundly.
So what? How does that possibly help you be happy? So you want love more than anything else, it is the root of all your desire... so what? Knowing this will save you a lot of wasted enrgy, and knowing this will help you find the one truly satisfying experience you can have. And, the very good news is that you already have that which you have been seeking all your life. You were seeking it where it cannot be, thinking it was outside you, thinking it was something to be acquired -- yet in reality, it is inside you always, and is something to be given away.
This Love heals all old wounds, because you will see that every "bad" thing you remember doing happened only by mistake. You have always wanted only to give and receive love and nothing else. But along the way of growing up and being indoctrinated into society, you learned some very inneffective strategies for love. You learned, for example, that you will be loved if you have money. Not so. You learned that if you are physically beautiful, that you will be loved. Not so. Maybe people will love your money, or your looks, but that has nothing to do with who you really. All your strategies for love have failed, because you have been looking in all the wrong places. Just by looking for love you lost it because Love is what you are -- how can you look for it when you are it? Looking pre-supposes that you don't "have" it. Well, tag, you're it -- you are the Love you seek. Now go and tag someone else; it's the most fun you can have.
Because you are Love itself, you have always made the best choices that you could make at the time, just like everyone else. That is how you can forgive others, and yourself, and realize that you have never needed forgiveness in truth, because you have never acted from any other motive than love. You are, and you must be, innocent. You were created; you did not create yourself. So, how can you be held responsible for your "mistakes?" They were inevitable; they were planned all along. The truth of this is obvious when you have the courage to stop fighting yourself and condemning yourself.
Herein lies your freedom, if you want it. You were created by Love itself, you are nothing but Love itself, and you create from Love itself. All else is fear, and fear is always a mistake -- there is nothing to fear in a perfect universe. You are that perfect Universe, the Universe of Love. But you will not see it as long as you hold your self guilty, for anything -- for your guilt is a wish for punishment, and so wished, it is received. But not really; only in your imagine are you punished, for love cannot punish, and love is all there is. So where does your suffering come from...? You just made it up, because you wanted it, thinking you deserved it... You are the god of your universe, and if you decide you deserve punishment, so it is, and punishment you will receive (of yourself). Wake up and realize that your freedom or your punishment is up to you, and no one else. Why choose to punish yourself for the inevitable mistakes you have made (because you were taught by people who also believed in punishment).
You deserve love not punishment -- but the world taught you otherwise through it's hurts. Don't believe it. Look for your self. Then, seeing your own perfection, forgive yourself. Every mistake you have made was the result of you doing the best you could do at the time.
Mistakes are how we learn -- they are not anything to worry over. Mistakes are why we came here, to make them and learn from them. So, perhaps you have made some big mistakes; so what You are learning big lessons. Well, learn what makes you happy and what does not. Do the one not the other. Simple isn't it? But be honest with yourself (and you'll see that women and men, fame and fortune, and stuff cannot ever make you happy). So stop kidding yourself.
To be happy you must give and receive love -- it's like breathing. But you will not let yourself or anyone else love you as long as you feel guilty. Drop your guilt by seeing that all your "sins" are nothing more than mistakes -- learn from them and move on. When you see the Love in you, you cannot remain in guilt any longer. That Love in you is you, it is the essence of everything that exists. That Love in you forgives because it knows you are innocent, and can be nothing else because Love itself created you. Be this Love, and then you will know this Love. Accept his Love and you accept yourself. Realize the truth of the existance of this Love, and you can never be alone again, because you are Home, where you never left, back in your heart, the center of the Universe.
Forgive yourself, completely, right now. Don't waste any more time trying to be somebody. You already are as perfect as you can be, here and now, and that is enough. Teach this forgivenes to others, that you will have it for yourself -- it is in the giving that you get it. You cannot forgive yourself and still condemn others, because the truth of forgiveness is true for everyone.
Forgiveness will set you free. Try it. You'll like it. Really.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Travelling Lightly, All the Way Home...
A silent Mind sees the way Home, and silence comes from forgiveness; there is no other way. All the masters' instruction can be summed up in that one word: forgiveness. Of course they pointed to enlightenment with their beingness, but you cannot get to enlightenment as you are -- you must let go of everything before you can recognize enlightenment. So, to teach people how to achieve enlightenment is an impossibility and a lie -- enlightenment is not something to attain (you already are it), and it is not something that can be given or taught, for the same reason. Enlightenment is achieved when you let go of everything that is in it's way -- which is every thing, every idea, every concept, every judgement you have.
All that stands in your way, no matter how it appears, is based on one false premise under which you live and die: that you must judge anything and everything. You feel that you must judge everything as good or bad, right or wrong, in order to live your life successfully -- there seems to be no choice other than to judge, all the time. It is a false assumption.
Judgment is the linch-pin that holds all of your false ego structure together -- all your ideas, and concepts, and experiences, from which you base your judgements (and that's fairly inclusive of all you are as a body). Finally realize that you cannot accurately judge anything in truth, because you know nothing at all -- for absolute surety -- and, to beat that, there is no "you" (that you can find for sure) to do any judging anyway. Drop your judgement, and your ego will vanish. And, to the degree that you judge not, to that same degree is your ego diminished. No judgement, no ego. No ego, no noise in the mind. No noisy mind, peace at last. From peace, it is but one more step Home, the last step, the one you cannot make yourself -- for it is the leaving of the self behind, to become the Self you are, the Self we all share, the One.
As the ego dies, we experience the fear of anihilation, for we still believe we are our egos. Thus we must have faith in what our hearts tell us is true -- that we are eternal beings, non-physical, and forever free. If we are but egos, we must suffer and die. See the truth of it for yourself, decide for yourself if this is true or not. When you see it, don't deny it any longer -- through the fear of the death of your ego, lies the fearless Self that knows no death. Have faith, you will not survive the trip, and good riddance. And when your ego dies, you are reborn; better to do it now than later. Die consciously while you are still alive, to be reborn in this life, conscious.
Realizing that you cannot judge anything -- because you do not have all the information -- you forgive everything, accepting it as it is, having no concept about what it is or should be.
We can practice forgiveness, by simply seeing the truth that we cannot judge, and therfore all our opinions and judgements are empty and meaningless, and not worthy of all the energy we put into them to impose them on others. When you forgive, you drop your judgement, and then the constant chatter in your mind will, of its own, begin to be ever quieter because it loses purpose. When your mind is finally quiet, you will know who you are and you will know you are not your mind, and thus you are free. Freedom is freedom from the mind; freedom is a quiet mind, a mind that knows directly, without analysis, with clarity and purpose.
See the simple truth -- you cannot accurately judge anything.
This truth will lead you directly home.
How to see this simple truth? It just takes a little skill and a lot of ruthless honesty. The skill is simply in how to ask questions, real questions. The ruthles honesty is simply to keep asking real questions, as each layer of your ego is peeled back to reveal the emptiness behind it, until each layer of fear is understood to be a mistake, and you reach the point where no more questions are possible -- and there is Home.
How to ask real questions? It is perhaps best demonstrated by example:
Choose something you are most certain about, something in which you feel your judgement is justified, based on what you think you know.
Let's say you choose to assert that: "I exist"
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The One Step
The one step that will quiet your mind, is forgiveness. All the chatter in your mind is simply the result of incompleteness, things unresolved, hurts unhealed, fears not faced... And, how can anything be incomplete when you cease to judge... incomplete as compared to what? On what authority do you base any judgement that what is should not be, or that what is not, should be?
What is, is. What isn't, isn't. Your judgement cannot change isness, change reality. It can only create conflict between what is, and what you want. Forgiveness leads to acceptance; acceptance leads to peace; peace is a quiet mind. A quite Mind, is where you'll find Home and it will be right here where you stand now. For ultimately, if you keep asking real questions, you'll see that even time and space are but concepts, which are just another form of judgement. Therefore you understand that you do not even know what time and space are, for sure; that all you have is an opinion, and a working hypothesis perhaps, and that too is just a judgement. So, you begin to see, by asking deeper and deeper questions, that indeed you do not know anything for sure -- all your judgements begin to drop naturally then, because you can no longer fool yourself into believing that you can judge, due to a complete lack of knowledge. Being free of all knowledge is the key, the key you will find if you keep looking deeper and deeper into everything you now think you know -- realizing it's all a sham -- you cannot find any real knowledge in you. Be honest, be ruthless in your questions; go deeper and deeper as you find each question brings another question, because no matter how far you look, there is always another question lurking behind the one you just "answered" -- there is no seeming end to the questions, because there is never a final, undisputable, fact that is not in some way derived from merely an opinion. All your facts are found to be opinions, when you look deeply enough. Then, look past the opinions, and realize they are all you have, and yet you have continued to base your whole life on them. Opinions... mine are different from yours; who is right? Neither can be; all opinions are, by definition, based on incomplete facts.
Finding that you have nothing but opinions, no facts, you begin to accept that you cannot judge anything without error. Thus you begin to judge less and doubt your authority to judge. As you drop judgement, you naturally forgive yourself and others, because you see that their faults are only so in your opinionated imagination. As you forgive, your mind relaxes and becomes quieter and quieter. In the quiet gaps you begin to see a part of yourself that you had forgotton long ago as a child. You begin to see your own innocence, your own true desire to just love and be loved, that has motivated every action you have ever done. As this awareness of your absolute innocence begins to return, you drop your judgement of yourself and begin to relax and accept yourself in love. As you accept yourself, you easily accept others, and your forgiveness grows stronger and more universal. With more forgiveness, you become more relaxed and more quiet inside, and thus more healthy. Your energy begins to dance like a child playing without self awareness. This newfound energy is your true Self emerging from the fog of that ego self you built from scraps of opinions based on fear -- this energy is the light that will begin to illuminate more and more dark places in you -- places you have hidden from yourself in your judgement of yourself. As you see and realize that what you have hidden from the light is but a shadow, and not real at all, you begin to love yourself, forgive yourself, and accept yourself -- and others too.
The chaos in the world is the chaos of minds that judge themselves harshly. Teach them to find their innocence, that we may all get a good night's sleep.
Once the single step of forgiveness is taken, all others will follow surely and lead you directly Home.
Why persist in judging? What possible benefit do you imagine that judging things will get you? Do you see that any judgement seperates that which is whole? To judge something good means that something else must be bad, and thus you create disharmony. With every judgement comes conflict, for you are always judging one thing against another -- you set them to war with themselves, and you are caught in the middle of the conflict. Setp out of the conflict by simply not judging the right and wrong of any thing -- you cannot judge accurately anyway, as you will surely see if you look for yourself and be ruthlessly honest.
If you want to find your way Home, back to where you are pefectly whole, perfectly accepted, and perfectly loved... then take one small step in the direction of forgiveness. The first step is critical, but from there you will be pointing in the exact direction where Home is located -- just walk straight forward, never deviating from forgiveness, and you will arrive as quickly as you can leave the road behind you.
Isn't that what forgiveness is -- simply leaving the road behind you? Because if you insist on rolling up the road behind you, and bringing it with you, your journey will be slow and arduous indeed. Forgiveness means leaving the past behind, each moment, travelling light.
All that stands in your way, no matter how it appears, is based on one false premise under which you live and die: that you must judge anything and everything. You feel that you must judge everything as good or bad, right or wrong, in order to live your life successfully -- there seems to be no choice other than to judge, all the time. It is a false assumption.
Judgment is the linch-pin that holds all of your false ego structure together -- all your ideas, and concepts, and experiences, from which you base your judgements (and that's fairly inclusive of all you are as a body). Finally realize that you cannot accurately judge anything in truth, because you know nothing at all -- for absolute surety -- and, to beat that, there is no "you" (that you can find for sure) to do any judging anyway. Drop your judgement, and your ego will vanish. And, to the degree that you judge not, to that same degree is your ego diminished. No judgement, no ego. No ego, no noise in the mind. No noisy mind, peace at last. From peace, it is but one more step Home, the last step, the one you cannot make yourself -- for it is the leaving of the self behind, to become the Self you are, the Self we all share, the One.
As the ego dies, we experience the fear of anihilation, for we still believe we are our egos. Thus we must have faith in what our hearts tell us is true -- that we are eternal beings, non-physical, and forever free. If we are but egos, we must suffer and die. See the truth of it for yourself, decide for yourself if this is true or not. When you see it, don't deny it any longer -- through the fear of the death of your ego, lies the fearless Self that knows no death. Have faith, you will not survive the trip, and good riddance. And when your ego dies, you are reborn; better to do it now than later. Die consciously while you are still alive, to be reborn in this life, conscious.
Realizing that you cannot judge anything -- because you do not have all the information -- you forgive everything, accepting it as it is, having no concept about what it is or should be.
We can practice forgiveness, by simply seeing the truth that we cannot judge, and therfore all our opinions and judgements are empty and meaningless, and not worthy of all the energy we put into them to impose them on others. When you forgive, you drop your judgement, and then the constant chatter in your mind will, of its own, begin to be ever quieter because it loses purpose. When your mind is finally quiet, you will know who you are and you will know you are not your mind, and thus you are free. Freedom is freedom from the mind; freedom is a quiet mind, a mind that knows directly, without analysis, with clarity and purpose.
See the simple truth -- you cannot accurately judge anything.
This truth will lead you directly home.
How to see this simple truth? It just takes a little skill and a lot of ruthless honesty. The skill is simply in how to ask questions, real questions. The ruthles honesty is simply to keep asking real questions, as each layer of your ego is peeled back to reveal the emptiness behind it, until each layer of fear is understood to be a mistake, and you reach the point where no more questions are possible -- and there is Home.
How to ask real questions? It is perhaps best demonstrated by example:
Choose something you are most certain about, something in which you feel your judgement is justified, based on what you think you know.
Let's say you choose to assert that: "I exist"
*
*
*
*
The One Step
The one step that will quiet your mind, is forgiveness. All the chatter in your mind is simply the result of incompleteness, things unresolved, hurts unhealed, fears not faced... And, how can anything be incomplete when you cease to judge... incomplete as compared to what? On what authority do you base any judgement that what is should not be, or that what is not, should be?
What is, is. What isn't, isn't. Your judgement cannot change isness, change reality. It can only create conflict between what is, and what you want. Forgiveness leads to acceptance; acceptance leads to peace; peace is a quiet mind. A quite Mind, is where you'll find Home and it will be right here where you stand now. For ultimately, if you keep asking real questions, you'll see that even time and space are but concepts, which are just another form of judgement. Therefore you understand that you do not even know what time and space are, for sure; that all you have is an opinion, and a working hypothesis perhaps, and that too is just a judgement. So, you begin to see, by asking deeper and deeper questions, that indeed you do not know anything for sure -- all your judgements begin to drop naturally then, because you can no longer fool yourself into believing that you can judge, due to a complete lack of knowledge. Being free of all knowledge is the key, the key you will find if you keep looking deeper and deeper into everything you now think you know -- realizing it's all a sham -- you cannot find any real knowledge in you. Be honest, be ruthless in your questions; go deeper and deeper as you find each question brings another question, because no matter how far you look, there is always another question lurking behind the one you just "answered" -- there is no seeming end to the questions, because there is never a final, undisputable, fact that is not in some way derived from merely an opinion. All your facts are found to be opinions, when you look deeply enough. Then, look past the opinions, and realize they are all you have, and yet you have continued to base your whole life on them. Opinions... mine are different from yours; who is right? Neither can be; all opinions are, by definition, based on incomplete facts.
Finding that you have nothing but opinions, no facts, you begin to accept that you cannot judge anything without error. Thus you begin to judge less and doubt your authority to judge. As you drop judgement, you naturally forgive yourself and others, because you see that their faults are only so in your opinionated imagination. As you forgive, your mind relaxes and becomes quieter and quieter. In the quiet gaps you begin to see a part of yourself that you had forgotton long ago as a child. You begin to see your own innocence, your own true desire to just love and be loved, that has motivated every action you have ever done. As this awareness of your absolute innocence begins to return, you drop your judgement of yourself and begin to relax and accept yourself in love. As you accept yourself, you easily accept others, and your forgiveness grows stronger and more universal. With more forgiveness, you become more relaxed and more quiet inside, and thus more healthy. Your energy begins to dance like a child playing without self awareness. This newfound energy is your true Self emerging from the fog of that ego self you built from scraps of opinions based on fear -- this energy is the light that will begin to illuminate more and more dark places in you -- places you have hidden from yourself in your judgement of yourself. As you see and realize that what you have hidden from the light is but a shadow, and not real at all, you begin to love yourself, forgive yourself, and accept yourself -- and others too.
The chaos in the world is the chaos of minds that judge themselves harshly. Teach them to find their innocence, that we may all get a good night's sleep.
Once the single step of forgiveness is taken, all others will follow surely and lead you directly Home.
Why persist in judging? What possible benefit do you imagine that judging things will get you? Do you see that any judgement seperates that which is whole? To judge something good means that something else must be bad, and thus you create disharmony. With every judgement comes conflict, for you are always judging one thing against another -- you set them to war with themselves, and you are caught in the middle of the conflict. Setp out of the conflict by simply not judging the right and wrong of any thing -- you cannot judge accurately anyway, as you will surely see if you look for yourself and be ruthlessly honest.
If you want to find your way Home, back to where you are pefectly whole, perfectly accepted, and perfectly loved... then take one small step in the direction of forgiveness. The first step is critical, but from there you will be pointing in the exact direction where Home is located -- just walk straight forward, never deviating from forgiveness, and you will arrive as quickly as you can leave the road behind you.
Isn't that what forgiveness is -- simply leaving the road behind you? Because if you insist on rolling up the road behind you, and bringing it with you, your journey will be slow and arduous indeed. Forgiveness means leaving the past behind, each moment, travelling light.
Imagining Reality Imagining...
A black hole is a one-dimensional point. Within it there is no space, and no time; there is no up, down, or sideways. There is nothing, nothing moves, nothing escapes, nothing begins or ends; eternity and the void, everything and nothing, exist simultaneously. All paradoxes reside here, coexist here, join here. Light enters but does not leave, because from here there is no place to go and no time to get there. Here, all dimensions join, in the place where they started, at the point of one dimension, at the center of nothing, always. Everything that enters, stays, and thus becomes a part of the One Point, which can have no parts. Yet the paradox is resolved, as the many become the one, as they always were, except in imagination. And it's always Now in a black hole.
If all paradoxes become one, and thus resolove, in a black hole, then what appear as paradoxes to us, must actually not exist as such -- because it cannot be true that inside a black hole is a set of rules that are fundamentally different from those we experience on this side of the hole. Yes, the rules inside the black hole appear different to our math-filtered senses, but indeed they can only be deeper laws that have yet to reveal themselveds to us on this side of the hole. True must be true always, and nothing else is true -- only one truth can be true, not many. Where there are many, truth cannot be. One only is the truth. One what...? Just One can be, all else mkust simply be the imagination of the One. How could it be otherwise?
Yet the One cannot have an imagination -- that would mean the One becomes two (both the One and the One's imagination). And thus the One becomes two -- by imagining It is two. And of course what is One cannot be two in reality -- only in imagination can the One seem to be divided. So the One became the many, but not really... Or is it that the many are true, but not the One? It cannot be both... or can it? It can be both, neither, or either -- as you imagine it to be.
Because the One only can be real, all else must be not real -- or what we on this side call "imaginary." Yet this implies and clearly demonstrates that all we see hear, feel, smell, or eat is imagined, by the One, which is NOT possibly split into anything at all, and certainly not into mindless stuff. So, then it begins to become clear that all anything (any thing) can be is the Mind of the One, which is the One and nothing else. So then, can you see that even the One is not a thing in itself -- cannot be -- it must be, and must only be, Mind, in which imagined things and concepts and bodies and stars, and feelings can exist. And, though on this side we may say that things are real and what is imagined is not... It is precisely the opposite: only that which is imagined is real" as we experience reality on this side, and that objects are thus not "real" as we experience real.
D0 you see it now? Then dine on these words and let them nourish your imagination, don't just look at them as items on a menu from which you cannot afford the price. You can afford this meal, and you cannot afford to ignore it. Starving we are for the truth, while it is a feast before us hidden behind our sense of seperation. Seperation is the illusion, and Oneness is the reality. And there can be no other reality.
Yet, there is a membrane, called fear, that divides the nothingness (no-thing-ness) into things. Of course the membrane is only imagined, like everything else. With the imagined fear, the many things arise -- fear seperates; seperation means things exist seperately (no things, no seperation).
Imagination, Mind, a black hole, singularity, God, All/Nothing, eternally present in no-time, Now, Here... are all words that represent the same thing -- that is no thing. It is what you are, and nothing else. And though "what you are" seems to be a seperate thing among a universe of things, we know that no seperate things can actually exist -- that what seems to be seperate are the result of fear, which like everything else is imagined.
So, on this side of the membrane of fear, things seem seperate; imagination is defined as that which is not real. On the other side of the fear membrane, only the Oneness is real, and no seperate things can possibly be real. Thus, the so called world we seem to experience is only being imagined by the Oneness. The paradox of existence is resolved in a flash when you see that reality as you perceive it is just a negative projection, in every way, from the One -- everything here is the opposite of there. Here there is time and space and objects; there there is only the One. And as we know the rules cannot be different on either side. The paradox of the seeming many resolves in the One, because they are not different in essence. The One is the many, the many are one; all exists now, but there is no thing to exist as a thing in itself. The very opposite, in every direction, of what you see, is the One. Yet the One can have no opposite in reality -- only an imagined opposite, as all things, concepts, and feelings are imagined.
So everything is just imagination, that's all it can be. But, do not quickly dismiss it as "only" imagination -- meaning NOT real -- but realize that reality itself, the real reality behind the seeming reality of this fear-based world of seperate things, is nothing but imagination. And if imagination imagines that you understand this, then you are free. If imagination imagines that this is all incomprehensible and stoopid... then that is what it is, to you.
See the beauty in this. Reality is imagined; it starts in imagination and then seems to manifest into things. If you want things -- imagine things, but understand that if you choose to live with things you must become a thing in imagination, and suffer the rules of a world made of things.
Why not imagine instead that you are One, that all you see is just you, really, no matter how it seems to your senses (which cannot, ever, sense what you are -- as the One who senses)?
Imagine what you want, you always do, anyway. But realize that if you choose to live in a world of imagination, then you will be subject to the laws of that world, and only one law exists: that which you imagine is real, and nothing else is real. So imagine wisely.
Imagine yourself healthy, imagine yourself free, imagine yourslef no longer tied to a body-object, Imagine that you are the One, the only One, the One we all share as One, in the imaginatioj of the One...
..and what you want, really, is to know yourself as you really are, once and for all, which is no thing at all, but Imagination Itself, Mind Itself, Eternity Itself, a Black Hole that takes in everything and makes it into "no-thing," but Itself.
Imagine that you are a black hole, implode all your objects in on themselves, and go Home at last, to your Self, where you only imagined that you left. One thing is for sure: you cannot ever leave your self, except in imagination, which is what created this whole world of seperate things. If you imagine you are seperate, then so you are. If you imagine that you are free, you are. If you imagine you are One (whole at last), you are the One, imagining you are the One.
Yes, it's always now in a black hole... and it's always here, right where we are, now.
I cannot imagine it to be any simpler than this.
If all paradoxes become one, and thus resolove, in a black hole, then what appear as paradoxes to us, must actually not exist as such -- because it cannot be true that inside a black hole is a set of rules that are fundamentally different from those we experience on this side of the hole. Yes, the rules inside the black hole appear different to our math-filtered senses, but indeed they can only be deeper laws that have yet to reveal themselveds to us on this side of the hole. True must be true always, and nothing else is true -- only one truth can be true, not many. Where there are many, truth cannot be. One only is the truth. One what...? Just One can be, all else mkust simply be the imagination of the One. How could it be otherwise?
Yet the One cannot have an imagination -- that would mean the One becomes two (both the One and the One's imagination). And thus the One becomes two -- by imagining It is two. And of course what is One cannot be two in reality -- only in imagination can the One seem to be divided. So the One became the many, but not really... Or is it that the many are true, but not the One? It cannot be both... or can it? It can be both, neither, or either -- as you imagine it to be.
Because the One only can be real, all else must be not real -- or what we on this side call "imaginary." Yet this implies and clearly demonstrates that all we see hear, feel, smell, or eat is imagined, by the One, which is NOT possibly split into anything at all, and certainly not into mindless stuff. So, then it begins to become clear that all anything (any thing) can be is the Mind of the One, which is the One and nothing else. So then, can you see that even the One is not a thing in itself -- cannot be -- it must be, and must only be, Mind, in which imagined things and concepts and bodies and stars, and feelings can exist. And, though on this side we may say that things are real and what is imagined is not... It is precisely the opposite: only that which is imagined is real" as we experience reality on this side, and that objects are thus not "real" as we experience real.
D0 you see it now? Then dine on these words and let them nourish your imagination, don't just look at them as items on a menu from which you cannot afford the price. You can afford this meal, and you cannot afford to ignore it. Starving we are for the truth, while it is a feast before us hidden behind our sense of seperation. Seperation is the illusion, and Oneness is the reality. And there can be no other reality.
Yet, there is a membrane, called fear, that divides the nothingness (no-thing-ness) into things. Of course the membrane is only imagined, like everything else. With the imagined fear, the many things arise -- fear seperates; seperation means things exist seperately (no things, no seperation).
Imagination, Mind, a black hole, singularity, God, All/Nothing, eternally present in no-time, Now, Here... are all words that represent the same thing -- that is no thing. It is what you are, and nothing else. And though "what you are" seems to be a seperate thing among a universe of things, we know that no seperate things can actually exist -- that what seems to be seperate are the result of fear, which like everything else is imagined.
So, on this side of the membrane of fear, things seem seperate; imagination is defined as that which is not real. On the other side of the fear membrane, only the Oneness is real, and no seperate things can possibly be real. Thus, the so called world we seem to experience is only being imagined by the Oneness. The paradox of existence is resolved in a flash when you see that reality as you perceive it is just a negative projection, in every way, from the One -- everything here is the opposite of there. Here there is time and space and objects; there there is only the One. And as we know the rules cannot be different on either side. The paradox of the seeming many resolves in the One, because they are not different in essence. The One is the many, the many are one; all exists now, but there is no thing to exist as a thing in itself. The very opposite, in every direction, of what you see, is the One. Yet the One can have no opposite in reality -- only an imagined opposite, as all things, concepts, and feelings are imagined.
So everything is just imagination, that's all it can be. But, do not quickly dismiss it as "only" imagination -- meaning NOT real -- but realize that reality itself, the real reality behind the seeming reality of this fear-based world of seperate things, is nothing but imagination. And if imagination imagines that you understand this, then you are free. If imagination imagines that this is all incomprehensible and stoopid... then that is what it is, to you.
See the beauty in this. Reality is imagined; it starts in imagination and then seems to manifest into things. If you want things -- imagine things, but understand that if you choose to live with things you must become a thing in imagination, and suffer the rules of a world made of things.
Why not imagine instead that you are One, that all you see is just you, really, no matter how it seems to your senses (which cannot, ever, sense what you are -- as the One who senses)?
Imagine what you want, you always do, anyway. But realize that if you choose to live in a world of imagination, then you will be subject to the laws of that world, and only one law exists: that which you imagine is real, and nothing else is real. So imagine wisely.
Imagine yourself healthy, imagine yourself free, imagine yourslef no longer tied to a body-object, Imagine that you are the One, the only One, the One we all share as One, in the imaginatioj of the One...
..and what you want, really, is to know yourself as you really are, once and for all, which is no thing at all, but Imagination Itself, Mind Itself, Eternity Itself, a Black Hole that takes in everything and makes it into "no-thing," but Itself.
Imagine that you are a black hole, implode all your objects in on themselves, and go Home at last, to your Self, where you only imagined that you left. One thing is for sure: you cannot ever leave your self, except in imagination, which is what created this whole world of seperate things. If you imagine you are seperate, then so you are. If you imagine that you are free, you are. If you imagine you are One (whole at last), you are the One, imagining you are the One.
Yes, it's always now in a black hole... and it's always here, right where we are, now.
I cannot imagine it to be any simpler than this.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Dangerous Journey
Love is a journey
The most dangerous kind
To find your heart
You must lose your mind
-Sahara
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The most dangerous kind
To find your heart
You must lose your mind
-Sahara
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
The Mockingbird Story..
What would the world be like if you dropped all your labels and concepts?
Once there was a mockingbird who would come to my balcony every night at about 2:00 in the morning. His voice was so loud that it would wake me, and I often just lay there listening to his many, varied songs. It seemed that he would go on for an hour or more, singing to the very top of his voice, and he never repeated the same song twice. His songs were magnificent, even though they were often an annoyance too. I loved that bird.
One night, after meditating, I fell deep into a dreamless sleep. Then, long into the night, I was awakened to the sound of the most beautiful angel voices. I heard a choir of thousands of sweet voices all in perfect holy harmony, all creating the most wonderous sound I had ever known. Actually I did not hear them so much as feel them with my whole body. It was not just my ears that delighted in the sound, it seemed as if my whole body resonated in harmony with the voices, as though they were inside me, and I was inside them. I had the feeling there was actually no difference between me and the voices.
Then I began to wake up from my sleep.
In the hypnogogic state, somewhere closer to waking than sleep, I recognized where the sound was coming from -- it was the mockingbird. And, as soon as I labeled the sound "mockingbird" the angel voices were gone; all I could hear was the familiar song of the mockingbird. The angel voices were actually initiated by the mockingbird.
Realizing that I had lost the voices by labeling them, I allowed myself to go back into sleep, just a little, and once again there were the angel voices -- swooning in a chorus so beautiful it made me cry... and then I woke up to hear "just" the mockingbird, once again.
This is when I realized what the masters have taught, about the necessity of dropping our concepts and labels. Life is wonderous beyond belief when we allow it to be as it is. But when we label an experience or try to understand it with our minds, we collapse it into a mental concept that is but a symbol of the truth. Since then I realize, when I hear a bird or see any object, that what I am experiencing is but a symbol of something much deeper, something I can only know when I drop my labels and my concepts about what it is.
Everything is unique, and far more rich than our normal senses can accept. Yet, we have a knowingness that can penetrate to the very divinity of any seemingly separate thing -- even a mockingbird is holy, and far more beautiful than we usually imagine. And everything is intimateloy connected in one Whole.
I have had only a few other experiences like this one since the mockingbird left, years ago. And each one confirms for me the truth of the masters, that we but live in a dream of our own making, that this dream is made of our concepts and ideas. We rarely experience the fullness of anything, directly. We think about things, and believe our thoughts are real. Yet, our thoughts are always conditioned by the past; they are just our symbols of past experiences which we keep recreating over and over again as we recall only the labels we have placed on them. We eat the menu instead of the meal, and wonder why we are still hungry for the truth.
For the first time, when I heard that mockingbird directly, without my concepts and labels, I ate the meal. And, still, to this day, even though I have had a few similar experiences, I still eat the menu most of the time. The experience does not persist for me, and perhaps I could not long live in a body if it did.
Yet, now I now know there is something we can experience that is so far beyond our usual dream that the best description I can find for it is "reality." Perhaps being fully awake is to hear the angels in every voice and to live in awe. Perhaps being fully awake to the awesomeness of life would cause this little life of separation to vanish, as all dreams do when we awaken.
I have chosen not to leave this dream just yet. Many still "live" in fear and suffering, thinking this is all so real. But, only Love itself is real, and fear is always a mistake. We are the perfect arising of a perfect Universe, how could it be otherwise? We are eternal beings. There is no death. If it were otherwise, life would be a cruel joke, and we are all doomed. I choose to believe that which empowers me, and so I believe in eternity, in Love, in Peace, in the perfection of the Universe which is in me as I am in It, and there is only a difference of perspective between us, not a difference of substance.
May we all awaken and live in Love and Peace and Harmony; why suffer any longer? Forgiveness is the way to awaken, because it's only our belief in separation that creates the illusion of separation. True forgiveness brings us all together again, as one. Without forgiveness, we live in fear and suffering. With forgiveness we grant holiness to our brothers and sisters, as being one with us. Forgiveness grants that we are all doing the best we know how at the time, and that we are all here to grow and learn from our mistakes. Forgiveness acknowledges that we do not know the truth of anything, that we are all deep in the dream of separation and we are all trying to awaken, as best as we know how. Yes, some of us have very negative ideas on what life is all about.
You and I can help awaken our Brothers and Sisters by simply granting them forgiveness. You are empowered to do so, and it is the greatest gift you can give, because it leads to acceptance and from acceptance we awaken, naturally.
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Once there was a mockingbird who would come to my balcony every night at about 2:00 in the morning. His voice was so loud that it would wake me, and I often just lay there listening to his many, varied songs. It seemed that he would go on for an hour or more, singing to the very top of his voice, and he never repeated the same song twice. His songs were magnificent, even though they were often an annoyance too. I loved that bird.
One night, after meditating, I fell deep into a dreamless sleep. Then, long into the night, I was awakened to the sound of the most beautiful angel voices. I heard a choir of thousands of sweet voices all in perfect holy harmony, all creating the most wonderous sound I had ever known. Actually I did not hear them so much as feel them with my whole body. It was not just my ears that delighted in the sound, it seemed as if my whole body resonated in harmony with the voices, as though they were inside me, and I was inside them. I had the feeling there was actually no difference between me and the voices.
Then I began to wake up from my sleep.
In the hypnogogic state, somewhere closer to waking than sleep, I recognized where the sound was coming from -- it was the mockingbird. And, as soon as I labeled the sound "mockingbird" the angel voices were gone; all I could hear was the familiar song of the mockingbird. The angel voices were actually initiated by the mockingbird.
Realizing that I had lost the voices by labeling them, I allowed myself to go back into sleep, just a little, and once again there were the angel voices -- swooning in a chorus so beautiful it made me cry... and then I woke up to hear "just" the mockingbird, once again.
This is when I realized what the masters have taught, about the necessity of dropping our concepts and labels. Life is wonderous beyond belief when we allow it to be as it is. But when we label an experience or try to understand it with our minds, we collapse it into a mental concept that is but a symbol of the truth. Since then I realize, when I hear a bird or see any object, that what I am experiencing is but a symbol of something much deeper, something I can only know when I drop my labels and my concepts about what it is.
Everything is unique, and far more rich than our normal senses can accept. Yet, we have a knowingness that can penetrate to the very divinity of any seemingly separate thing -- even a mockingbird is holy, and far more beautiful than we usually imagine. And everything is intimateloy connected in one Whole.
I have had only a few other experiences like this one since the mockingbird left, years ago. And each one confirms for me the truth of the masters, that we but live in a dream of our own making, that this dream is made of our concepts and ideas. We rarely experience the fullness of anything, directly. We think about things, and believe our thoughts are real. Yet, our thoughts are always conditioned by the past; they are just our symbols of past experiences which we keep recreating over and over again as we recall only the labels we have placed on them. We eat the menu instead of the meal, and wonder why we are still hungry for the truth.
For the first time, when I heard that mockingbird directly, without my concepts and labels, I ate the meal. And, still, to this day, even though I have had a few similar experiences, I still eat the menu most of the time. The experience does not persist for me, and perhaps I could not long live in a body if it did.
Yet, now I now know there is something we can experience that is so far beyond our usual dream that the best description I can find for it is "reality." Perhaps being fully awake is to hear the angels in every voice and to live in awe. Perhaps being fully awake to the awesomeness of life would cause this little life of separation to vanish, as all dreams do when we awaken.
I have chosen not to leave this dream just yet. Many still "live" in fear and suffering, thinking this is all so real. But, only Love itself is real, and fear is always a mistake. We are the perfect arising of a perfect Universe, how could it be otherwise? We are eternal beings. There is no death. If it were otherwise, life would be a cruel joke, and we are all doomed. I choose to believe that which empowers me, and so I believe in eternity, in Love, in Peace, in the perfection of the Universe which is in me as I am in It, and there is only a difference of perspective between us, not a difference of substance.
May we all awaken and live in Love and Peace and Harmony; why suffer any longer? Forgiveness is the way to awaken, because it's only our belief in separation that creates the illusion of separation. True forgiveness brings us all together again, as one. Without forgiveness, we live in fear and suffering. With forgiveness we grant holiness to our brothers and sisters, as being one with us. Forgiveness grants that we are all doing the best we know how at the time, and that we are all here to grow and learn from our mistakes. Forgiveness acknowledges that we do not know the truth of anything, that we are all deep in the dream of separation and we are all trying to awaken, as best as we know how. Yes, some of us have very negative ideas on what life is all about.
You and I can help awaken our Brothers and Sisters by simply granting them forgiveness. You are empowered to do so, and it is the greatest gift you can give, because it leads to acceptance and from acceptance we awaken, naturally.
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
Why Are You Here...?
Along the path to awakening, some of us find that we must actively bring some light (compassion, peace, Love, understanding) to the world so we can progress individually and as a whole. Yet, as we progress we realize that we know nothing, that even our own existance as a separate self is an illusion -- life is but a dream. So, what do we do? How do we row our little boats gently down the stream of life? How do we bring some light to help our brothers and sisters avoid unnecessary suffering? What do we teach? What do we say? What do we do? All good questions, ones I have pondered far too long -- it's time to act.
This blog is for those who feel a calling to teach from Spirit. I am not interested in teaching my beliefs or my good ideas. I want to share only that which is inspired by Spirit, and tested by personal experience. I want to teach teachers, those who feel they are free enough of their past to begin to see a different way, those who see that their next step is on the path of awakening themselves and others.
The trap, of course, is that we begin teaching as a way to strengthen our egos, to "sell" our way of thinking, to quell our own doubts. This is not what we are after. We are after genuine awakening, not the idea of awakening; the transcendance of the ego, not it's glorification; the cessation of our monkey mind, not it's satisfaction. Yet we must begin where we are, realizing that we are not free of the ego. We are not waiting until we are "perfect," to teach perfection (just like we do not need to fully understand quantum physics -- as a rare few do -- in order to teach it.
There is a better way to live, a way to be at peace, in harmony with all of life. This is not my way; I did not invent it. But, this is the way that has been taught throughout recorded history, the way that works when it is applied and lived. Mere talk and written words are not enough to transmit it. The words must be eaten and digested and assimilated into a new body that is filled with light and free of the past. It's not difficult at all; it can be learned -- but it cannot be taught. And thus there is already a paradox we must resolve -- how do we teach what cannot be taught? The answer is simply that everyone already knows what you will teach, but they have forgotten. You will see this as you remember for yourself, and you will remember as you teach -- not before. Thus we have another paradox -- how do we teach what we yet do not know? Again, we know, but we have forgotten too. You will know what you know as you begin to teach, for it is through the giving that you receive; you must give away that which you want to have.
So, we cannot wait to "have it all figgered out" before we begin. That may sound strange, but it's not our own ideas we are to teach. Our job, as teachers, is to connect to Source and allow That to work through us. All we have to do, as teachers, is to let go of our limiting beliefs and everything else that is in the way. What we will teach is not our own, and that is it's beauty and it's power. What we will teach, by word and deed and example, is simply forgiveness. Yet, forgiveness is far from simple to most of us. We often forgive from a sense of superiority -- which is not true forgiveness.
What is true forgiveness, and how can something so easy have such power to heal? If you are here to bring peace to yourself and to the world, read on. More to come...
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This blog is for those who feel a calling to teach from Spirit. I am not interested in teaching my beliefs or my good ideas. I want to share only that which is inspired by Spirit, and tested by personal experience. I want to teach teachers, those who feel they are free enough of their past to begin to see a different way, those who see that their next step is on the path of awakening themselves and others.
The trap, of course, is that we begin teaching as a way to strengthen our egos, to "sell" our way of thinking, to quell our own doubts. This is not what we are after. We are after genuine awakening, not the idea of awakening; the transcendance of the ego, not it's glorification; the cessation of our monkey mind, not it's satisfaction. Yet we must begin where we are, realizing that we are not free of the ego. We are not waiting until we are "perfect," to teach perfection (just like we do not need to fully understand quantum physics -- as a rare few do -- in order to teach it.
There is a better way to live, a way to be at peace, in harmony with all of life. This is not my way; I did not invent it. But, this is the way that has been taught throughout recorded history, the way that works when it is applied and lived. Mere talk and written words are not enough to transmit it. The words must be eaten and digested and assimilated into a new body that is filled with light and free of the past. It's not difficult at all; it can be learned -- but it cannot be taught. And thus there is already a paradox we must resolve -- how do we teach what cannot be taught? The answer is simply that everyone already knows what you will teach, but they have forgotten. You will see this as you remember for yourself, and you will remember as you teach -- not before. Thus we have another paradox -- how do we teach what we yet do not know? Again, we know, but we have forgotten too. You will know what you know as you begin to teach, for it is through the giving that you receive; you must give away that which you want to have.
So, we cannot wait to "have it all figgered out" before we begin. That may sound strange, but it's not our own ideas we are to teach. Our job, as teachers, is to connect to Source and allow That to work through us. All we have to do, as teachers, is to let go of our limiting beliefs and everything else that is in the way. What we will teach is not our own, and that is it's beauty and it's power. What we will teach, by word and deed and example, is simply forgiveness. Yet, forgiveness is far from simple to most of us. We often forgive from a sense of superiority -- which is not true forgiveness.
What is true forgiveness, and how can something so easy have such power to heal? If you are here to bring peace to yourself and to the world, read on. More to come...
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